Saturday, May 19, 2012

A Long Time Coming

     It has been awhile since I have had the energy to sit down and put words to what is going on in our attempt to get Masha.  Liz has been after me for awhile about giving an update on the process, but it is hard to always write on the negative side of things.  We had several things in the works over the last few months hoping we could get Masha here by this summer, but they are not going to work out.  The other disappointing thing is now that Liz has applied for Masha to be adopted past 16 we can not host her for this summer as the U.S. looks at her as a flight risk.  We really wanted to use this summer hosting to see if she was prepared to do what she needed to do to make a life here, again not possible.  Now we are left with every other night discussions about what we are going to do.  I will admit that it is my faith and drive to continue that has wavered while Liz is staying strong.   I am plagued with multiple questions that as we lose more and more time appear harder for me to answer.   The only thing I am sure of is we can at least give her a better life, and  everyone in the family loves her.  The other questions mostly center around my selfishness and how much it will actually affect my 2 girls.  The problem with those questions is it will take a leap of faith to find the answer.
     So, where are we at right now?  Absolutely nothing can be done until November as she was not registered until Nov. 25th.   We do however have to start the entire process over again as our initial efforts have been flushed down the drain because too much time has elapsed.  So new home studies, medical assessments, and possibly a new I600A dependent on when we would actually travel.  I guess it is good that the only thing we knew for sure going in to this process is it is far from cheap.  Best case scenario is we get her by end of December with a much more realistic timeline being sometime in January or February.   A lot can change in a span of a few months with these kids, so we will sit back, attempt to relax, and see where the journey takes us.